This blog originally began as "Blog of the Universe," chronicling the adventures of three girls during Depeche Mode's Tour of the Universe. Now that the girls' shows have passed, Amanda has decided to continue blogging on various DM-related topics. This blog isn't really meant to be a news source (there are great sites for that already) but more of a personal op-ed space for DM musings.
Many may question whether we have lives (we do), but what is life without adventure to make it worth living?
Amanda is a pretty mellow person (when I'm not stressed out about projects) but she loves fun and adventure with friends.
She has a B.S. in Graphic Design and spends her weekdays working for a firm that specializes in non-profit and small business marketing. Amanda lives with her boyfriend (to whom she may as well be married) and one crazy cat, Cocoanut. Enjoying many time-consuming hobbies that compete with one another, she is fully aware she's a complete geek and revels in it.
I'm in the Denver airport now, waiting for my flight to Dallas. Last night's show was in a truly unique venue, beautiful.. The crowd, however left a bit to be desired. Pretty casual for the most part and took a few songs to warm up, which is expected, but there was A LOT of pot smoke (legal to carry 1oz in Colorado) and people were coming and going for beer the whole show. There were no aisles, so people kept having to walk past us in our row, which was rather annoying.
This wasn't just during Mart's solos, either. I had and excellent view right of stage, nearly no obstructions other than the occassional hand. I hadn't seen the full stage in it's entrirety yet because I've only been to GA gigs so far. It was great to be able to have a clear and close view of all the lads in one scene and the stage atmosphere.
The show was very enjoyable, the band was having a lot of fun, especially toward the end when Dave spotted some sort of bug or frog on stage and started fussing over it like a 10 year old boy - too cute. Inbetween songs, He even got the crowd in by saying "Hey, we've got this little guy here, and he's like this *Dave imitates mantis/frog-like pose.* hope somebody got video! Fletch and Peter were even donning bug spray in the breaks of the first few songs.
I was excited to get a varied setlist, hearing "Somebody" and "Behind the Wheel" for the first time this tour. "Somebody" was moving and beautiful. It's not really my favorite of Martin's solos, but he gave and amazing delivery. I loved the conviction of the nonlyrical vocals at the end. I enjoyed the racing patterns on the screens for BtW - teal/blue-green is fitting for that song (dunno why). I was also happy to hear Home for a second time as it's one of my favorites of Martin's. Dave was full of praise for Martin all night, calling him Marty Fresh once again.
"Waiting for the Night" moved me to tears again, not only for the simple beauty of it, but because I felt almost as if I was saying goodbye for now. This show was my second to last for this tour, and the last I'll be up close and personal. My seats in Dallas are up in the second tier since I'm taking some friends to the show (couldn't pull any better for four people). I couldn't really get good pics but I took a few nice videos, including one of Mart and Dave headbanging during IFY. Also, there was a long, dramatic pause in WFTN that I didn't notice at other gigs. It's neat to hear how songs are evolving through the tour, namely the chilling echos added to IYR, the crazy breakdown in ETS, and now the new lights and pause WFTN.
No photos or videos from me for this gig - I opted to attend camera-free.
After waiting around and playing slots outside the venue all day, I managed score front row rail, despite a security misscommunication. At first I thought we were going to be far from Dave, but then the split the difference of the half circle between Dave and Mart: Dave was quite close and to my left. Super small stage and a great intimate venue.
It was damn hot in there, but that wasn't the only reason the crowd was on fire. The singalongs for Martin's AQOL and Shake the Disease were some of the loudest I've heard. Martin seemed pleasantly surprised. At one point Dave called him "Marty Fresh." LOL
Dave sang a good chunk of Precious to me and a gal to my left (see photo) - or perhaps I should say sang with, as I sang every word back to him. The girl next to me was shocked and loving it too much to sing, so she danced and hooted instead (I think? I wasn't focused on her. ;) ).
After four German shows I was hoping to catch a few new ones last night and was treated to Miles Away and Shake the Disease. I was super excited to hear Miles Away! It was great, and it's not my favorite from SoTU. I think the crowd got into it a bit, but there was not nearly enough dancing and singing from parts of the front row.
I managed to get Dave's setlist from his setup near Christian's drumkit - it had a puddle of honey spilled on it, which made it tricky to carry around.
I was so beat from dancing, singing and sweating that I opted to hang out and relax at the Palms with some buddies instead of going to the Beauty Bar afterparty. This proved to be a fortuitous turn, as we ended up meeting Martin as he was leaving a club there! He was super sweet to take pictures with a few fans and I was able to give him the three copies of the fanbook I brought for the three guys! He thanked me and seemed genuinely touched after I told him what they were. *warm fuzzy* I do hope they enjoy them. :)
Overall, everything about last night was amazing.. An awesome show, Dave giving his sassy 110% and rubbing/grinding the mic stand a lot more than Ive seen this tour. Must be the city. Or the sea of girls in front! Almost the whole front row was chicks! Glen was pimpin'. ;)
I met SO many people I'd wanted to meet after months/years of talking online in DM communities! From BONG to Home to Modefan.com and the DMMB.. You guys were all awesome!!
I cannot complain about much, other than the stressful queing situation or lack thereof and people that kept throwing random things on stage. I also did not take my camera, but it allowed me to enjoy the show full-out.
My throat is hoarse, I've only slept for a few hours and the come down from this will be huge.. But on to Denver on Thursday!
OK, well I guess at some point the comment form broke, and that's why we had no comments for such a long time. The "leave a comment" link wasn't taking readers to the comment form. Should be fixed now. Sorry 'bout that.
Shit Happens: How TOTU is Not Cursed and Dave Gahan is Not Old
by Amanda
This isn't necessarily the topic I wanted to have for my first non-tour related post, but it seems fitting. As most fans know by now, today's gig in Mountain View, California was cancelled as Dave was forced on 48-hour vocal rest. I also had three of my Germany shows cancelled earlier in the tour. This was to be my "hometown" show, at least as close to home as one could be when they live two hours away from the venue. This time yesterday, I was having a rough day at work, but was happily thinking that right now I'd be sitting in a bar with fellow Modefans from Home, Bong and the DMMB. Instead I'm AT home, almost wishing I had A bong and wondering how people can be so DUMB on the internet. I'm crushed, but I'm not angry. I have not been wronged by anyone, just simply unlucky. Unlike my boyfriend and several friends who planned on going to Shoreline, I am blessed enough to be seeing multiple shows on this tour. Not so for many NorCal fans, and my sympathies are with them.
Dave and Depeche Mode have certainly seen their fair share of "misfortune" this tour, haven't they? People have been posting that the tour is cursed. "Curse of the Universe," to some, "Tour of the Unicurse," to others. I still refuse to call it cursed or unlucky. If Dave hadn't fallen ill in Athens, it could have been quite some time before anyone discovered his low-grade bladder tumor. No cancer is friendly, but bladder cancer is one that can turn nasty, aggressive and hard to treat if not caught early. If not for intestinal trouble and zealous doctors, in time we could have been facing an uncertain or unthinkable future - at worst one without a wonderful person and amazing artist who has touched and inspired so many. For this reason, for himself, his family, friends and fans, I dare say I am tempted to call this tour "lucky." Call me melodramatic if you must, but for him to have gone through everything he has and come out a better person for it, working hard to turn his life around, only to meet an untimely end by cancer unrecognized would not be unlucky - it would be tragedy.
Many fans have started attributing his health problems this tour to his being "old." He's only 47. News flash, people.. we're in an era when people can live to be 113. This is logic I'm tired of seeing. Cancer knows no age. Millions of people under the age of 40 have had the disease - just look at all the children's cancer centers and charities. Perfectly healthy tweens and teens tear muscles while playing soccer or basketball, despite regular practices and stretching routines. Singers of any age can over-extend their vocals in a night of excess fervor, just as a trained chef can burn their finger in a boisterous stir-frying session. Dave is getting older, as we all are, but I think to blame everything on age is a crutch. The man is in better shape than many of the people for which he performs, many of whom are his junior by 10 years. Sure, he did a lot of damage to his body in the past, which may play a role, but he appears to do everything he can now to ensure he takes the best care of his body and it appears to be working well. As none of us are his personal physician, we're in no position to make judgements. I just find it terribly sad that we live in an ageist society that stops believing in one's abilities upon the 30th year.
In my life, I've found that fortune works in interesting ways. For every peaceful time, there are equal and opposite tumultuous times. The pendulum of life swings between the two, with a subtle pause at either end before it dips and swings back again. Without the storm, we tend to take the sun for granted. It appears Dave, and by auxiliary Depeche Mode, are in a tumultuous period. The calf-tear and vocal strain merely a series of unfortunate events following a blessing disguised as misfortune. I speculate Dave probably hasn't taken his life for granted in some 13 years, but I think fans may have. No - by the sheer amount of disrespectful, conspiracy-mongering posts I have seen over the last two tours, I'm sure of it. While there are indeed kind and empathetic, if at least plain practical, fans out there, the amount of fans with an egregious sense of entitlement is baffling. Yes, we as fans lose a lot when Depeche Mode cancels shows - potentially thousands of dollars on travel and other expenses. But that's the risk we take. One never knows if a natural disaster might hit and destroy our vacation plans - but do we blame the travel broker for the hurricane that leveled the city of destination? No. However, DM is not a product - what we have in these situations is a living breathing person's health. A man who has lived through worse things and has been nothing but dedicated to giving more than his every ounce to entertain us for nearly 30 years, despite incidents ranging from broken ribs to a heart attack to the flu. He's had a LOT of shit flung in his face off-and-on over the last 13-14 years for drugs, solo albums, and illness beyond his control, but he still comes back for more. Why on Earth should we call into question his integrity now? A person doesn't have that kind of spirit for money, only for the love of what he does.
It's unfortunate for Dave that he has to deal with these things in the public sphere with hundreds of thousands of fans' joy on the line. Anyone who thinks for a second that he doesn't feel remorse for this may need their head examined. I don't know Dave, I can't speak for him. What I can attempt to speak for is perspective. How would we feel if we had tens of thousands of people were let down because of our health problems we couldn't control? When we have health problems, it rarely ripples beyond our immediate friends, family and coworkers. When Depeche Mode have trouble, the aftershocks can be felt for thousands of miles, thousands of kilobytes and thousands of people. Not a position I'd envy on my worst day.
After a scrambled morning that involved a 7am cab ride, a few hours on a train to Munich and a long walk to our hostel, we arrived at the impressive Munich Olympiastadion around 1:30pm. This was by far the weirdest line set-up.. there were several lines at different gates around the venue. We stuck around in the one that looked like it'd be the straightest shot to the front of stage area. Fortunately though the day was sunny, we had dappled shade from the ample trees and a cool breeze. The atmosphere was light and mellow. I didn't manage to sleep any while in line this time, though I wished I could have.
We ended up being part of a group they let through the first gates early by accident, so we had a little head start once the main gates opened. However, that was only after we stood around in the sun for 30-45minutes while they figured out what they were doing. Unfortunately once we were in the venue, this was a run similar to Berlin in that we found ourselves at the top of the stadium with a huge column of stairs to descend. However, unlike Berlin, the stairs near our gate dumped directly into the right side of the front of stage section. My legs were barely functional for running by this show, and it was the best I could do to jog down the stairs and around the catwalk. Not to mention the horrible security bottle necks. I think I had to pass through like four different check points just to get to the Front of Stage area. By the time I arrived, a six foot tall man ended up in front of me. I was freaking out, thinking my last gig in Germany was going to be stuck behind this guy, craning my neck around his very broad shoulders the whole time. Fortunately when the shows started, we shifted around a bit and my view was no longer obscured! Phew!
Before the show, the people around us were exceedingly friendly and wanted to know all about where we came from, what North American gigs and audiences were like, etc. It was the first time we really had a group of people asking us a lot of questions, one guy was even considering taking a California vacation and wanted to know about So Cal. Throughout our gigs, we had usually maybe one or two people stop and ask us where we were from, though most seemed to think we were from England at first. Nights before, we met some Germans who'd moved to England, a gal from France and even a fan from Mexico City who stopped to talk to us when they overheard our English. In Munich there was a large crew from Italy, the "Italian Spacewalkers." From reading boards, I know there were even more citizens from around the world, too. Germany: international Depeche Mode mecca!
Depeche put on another amazing show and several of us cheered when Dave came into "It's No Good" on time - even the band shared a smile. The crowd around us was warm and friendly, though not as insane as Frankfurt or Munich. One of the gals we chatted with before the show even leaned back toward me to sing the chorus of "Never Let Me Down Again," to which I responded by leaning forward with my head next to hers to sing along and dance. I think this was one of my big highlights of the show - singing and dancing along with a complete stranger, but as friends united under a common passion for the music. :)
Martin surprised us (finally!) by switching up the setlist a bit, swapping "A Question of Lust" for "Home." The song was so well received, it's no wonder he has continued to sing it for the majority of the tour thus far. "Home" is always a treat, as it's a personally special song for me, but I think I preferred the TTA version more since it was such a unique arrangement for the live setting.
The rest of the show was tight and went off well. What can I really say without repeating myself? Oh yeah, "Come Back" is still epic.. I don't think I've said that before.. ;) I managed to take some decent videos here, including this nice one of "Stripped":
After the lights went up, I tried to get the attention of the central camera man to ask for his setlist, but he couldn't hear or see me, as he was hard at work disassembling his station. I then shouted "Can I have the setlist??" to which the lead sound engineer (..? I've seen him a lot, on TTA too, always doing the mic checks and working at the board on the side) responded by tossing me his as he was coming down the catwalk. Amusingly, it fell short, landing half way between him and I, in the pit. The crowd let out a collective "Awwwwe," after which the camera man got down and handed it to me. I thanked them both and told them how I'd come out from California and it was my last gig, so it meant a lot. The camera man's body language was like "damn!" as he shook his head in amusement. After telling them goodbye and I'd see them in San Francisco, I turned around to find a gaggle of fans who all wanted pictures of my setlist! LOL. The tall guy from before took it and held it up so everyone could get pictures of it. At Tracy's suggestion, I stuck it in my passport wallet to ensure I wouldn't lose it, as I had been misplacing things left and right throughout the trip.
As we were leaving, I found myself happily punch-drunk. Four gigs, a back-to-back night, post-concert glee and the cold/infection finally took their toll - I spent most of the trip back to central Munich rambling to Alex, ogling photos and videos on my camera, and being otherwise random. Tara and Tracy were cracking up because I may as well have been drunk but I hadn't had any alcohol, and hadn't had any medication for many hours. Ah, exhaustion. We came out of the subway to find one of the most beautiful buildings I've ever had the pleasure of seeing in person, to which I exclaimed, "Holy shit! That's awesome!" and made a general big deal of it. Tracy told me I was doing a great service to my country. LOL
As we attempted to find our way around sometime past midnight, we had a rather wild-looking elderly (possibly homeless) lady stop to help us, but then she stalked us for several yards. I think Thomas managed to convince her we had our heading and were quite fine from there, to which she wandered off on her own. We had a great dinner to conclude our last night together. Though I was starved, I only managed to finish half my raviolis. My appetite was dismal the majority of the trip. I'm not sure if it was the stress or the illness or both - all I know is I felt very rude for it!
We didn't get back to the hostel until nearly 3:00am. After making some conversations with other hostel guests who liked DM and last minute trades with Alex and Thomas, I packed all my things for the flight the next morning. After all was said and done, I didn't get to bed till 4am. It was more like taking a nap rather than going to bed, though, because we had to be up at 7:30 to leave for the airport.
I've noticed we haven't received any comments at all since I made it Google users only, so I've gone ahead and unlocked them. Anyone can post commens now, and I'll use moderation to filter out any trolls.
Wednesday kicks off my first North American show. I've set up mobile blogging through e-mail via my iPhone, so I hope to be able to post some post-gig thoughts after each show. In North America I will have AT&T Edge network access full round, so blogging/tweeting shouldn't be as much of an issue. Do watch my Twitter feed for short comments from the gigs. I may not be doing them frequently throughout the show itself, I do want to enjoy experiencing the gig, but you never know when I'll get the urge. ;)
Tara's still getting caught up on her whirlwind of plans, having done Toronto and Montreal a little over a week ago. Once she's stabilized, she'll be sure to make some posts, too! Tracy isn't much for blogging, so you may not see a lot from her.
Nearly two months after the gig, I'm finally posting about it. But hey! At least I'm committed to posting them, right? Frankfurt was another great gig. There were signs leading to the venue from our hotel, so we thought we could walk. This turned out to be a mistake as the signs led us into the middle of a forest then disappeared altogether. Commerzbank is nestled in a very woodsy area, obscured by tall trees. It was a nice walk, but disconcerting as we found ourselves wondering where the heck we were going. We asked a nice gentleman for directions (thank God for Tara's German skills), found the venue, but had no idea what side we needed to be on for the Front of Stage entry. Unfortunately none of the venue staff we asked knew either. We walked back and forth around what turned out to be the back of the venue, until we saw a huge poster/sign above a security person who didn't know anything, despite the sign above his head! Finally we had our heading and took a long hike around the venue and through the woods (again). We were greeted by friendly familiar faces - the hardcore German crew that was first onto the floors in Leipzig and Berlin, who had been right in front of us on the rail at each gig.
By this time I was still hopped up on Sudafed (i.e. a bit dehydrated and able to sleep in line) for the raging tempest that was my sinuses besieged by a wonderful infection. The weather was kind, if a bit erratic. Scattered clouds were drifting through the sky, leaving us baked when the sun was shining on our black pants, and chilled when clouds obscured the warm rays.
It really is too bad I suck at running. For this show, Tara got hung up by a security lady, and I was one of the first through the gates because security ignored me completely! I bolted as best I could, but my muscles were starting to feel the wear from the previous gigs and no matter how hard I tried I felt like I just couldn't pick up much speed! I got passed by quite a few people. Security here tried to create speed bumps of themselves, one even stepped right in front of me at full power. I swiveled on one foot and ducked under his outstretched arms to take the final bend around the catwalk to our usual haunt in front of Dave's mic. Frankfurt was the shortest run to rail of all four shows. Tara whizzed past me at some point, managing to secure us a spot on the rail itself, in the corner where the front meets the catwalk. Woo hoo! It was then that I realized I had pulled a muscle in my inner thigh, probably when dodging the security road block. :(
Tara and I hung out on the rail and chatted the rest of the afternoon away. The dude on the rail behind me was at his very first DM gig! Nice placement for a first gig! He was very excited and interested in talking to us about what to expect. :) DM did not disappoint, delivering another solid show, though Dave came in early during "It's No Good," as he did in Berlin. Oops! The setlist was the same as the Leipzig and Berlin shows, but still proved entertaining. "Come Back" was still a highlight for me, as were "Master and Servant" and amazingly, "Personal Jesus." I also captured a great video from "In Your Room" that reminded me of how amazing Dave has been despite the medical problems he faced only weeks prior.
We were confused when the projection for "Strangelove" flooded with red - I almost thought it was broken until it lasted for more than a few seconds. I didn't know about the censorship in Tel Aviv at this point so it came as a surprise. The rest of the show proved another night of romping good fun with good friends. Martin and Dave sounded in excellent form and "Waiting for the Night" was as breathtaking as ever.
I think the highlight of this gig was the crowd. They were LOUD! Especially in my immediate surroundings, we were dancing and hooting and chanting with fervor! Berlin had the biggest crowd, and the electric energy, but Frankfurt Front of Stage was losing its collective mind! Every silent gap was filled by someone or some people doing something - singing, screaming, anything. I found out when we showed up in Munich that the German crew that had been in front of us at each gig didn't go to that show, so Frankfurt was their last stop for a while. This could explain why they were jumping and dancing with even more gusto than the previous nights. It was a great crowd to be immediately surrounded by, though at this point my jumping beans were running out of steam. I kept dancing as much as I could, including making goofy faces at the camera guy who appeared quite amused by watching us flip out. At one point I motioned to ask for the setlist but he'd already promised it to one of the girls from the hardcore group. She also got a lot of love from Dave that night, who had probably recognized her and her friends by this point. After the show, the sound guy brought out backstage passes for her and her boyfriend. Wow, talk about a lucky night for a DM fan! I'd be lying if I said I wasn't jealous, but was great to see someone who really deserved it be rewarded. No joke, her and her friends had to have been at the venue 7am or earlier at every show because not only did they beat us, there were also people that had come after them but before us.
Another great gig behind us, we trudged out to the trains. It's amazing how horrible I felt before and after the gigs, but during that two hours when DM were on stage, I almost forgot I was sick, or didn't care. I started feeling it a bit more in Frankfurt and Munich because I would try to bounce but my body would object after just a few jumps. Try to sing, only to be thwarted by sinus drainage in my throat. But I suffered well. ;) Sometime on the way to the train, sadly, my body stopped feeling the concert high. I was losing ground. Needed food and sleep badly! I had my own hotel room that night due to some weird booking issues, so I soaked in a nice hot bath, hoping to relieve my aching muscles.
I turned on the TV when I went to bed, flipped through the channels and saw news from home on CNN and BBC.. Talking about the crap economy as usual, but also talking about Obama's trip to Germany. They showed a part of one of his speeches. This was the first time I realized I was a bit home sick - I saw the NEWS on the telly and was like "OMG, home! ;o;" Then there was the breaking news of the Iran elections and North Korea's usual shenanigans.. We were so busy and enjoying ourselves, I hadn't really had time to stop and think I hadn't been home, on the internet or read the news in nine days. Talk about living in a bubble. Doing this sort of trip makes you start to realize what it might feel like for the band on tour, albeit on a more compact scale. Eventually I managed to find sleep, somewhere around 2am. The next morning would be another early one - the gig in Munich was back-to-back with Frankfurt.